2015 news.

Today a special day, imagine day sitting in your pyjamas, having a feed of mud crab, the aroma of the salt water fills your nose, as the soothing heat upon your legs heater, a world of bliss. Can't help but feel relax and enjoying. Enjoyments come in many facets, in the little things. For me, I have had a day truly studying God's word. To read a bible put word in your mind, however to study gives revelation and new identity as the bible is living words. The love fills my heart know just how much he loves me and what he says I am. Often when you live with a chronic pain or life in general- these aspects that Jesus holds so close to his heart breaks his heart seeing that I don't share his vision of me. He has awesome job, but procrastination is my worst enemy and I am allowing myself to miss out on so much. The world don't stop because I am not acting on, what I have  been told to do. I am aware not that all days, I can do all things I plan but each time, I have been given a hearts desire and if I don't act that burning desire fade away and negativity fills the cavity, therefore this is my 2015 call to action with my chosen word is 'create'. This is my personal call to action. 😀

My NaNoWriMo experience

I won NaNoWriMo, last year I signed my first book contract Tinsel's Mishaps book 1: reindeers retirement will be released at Christmas 2015, so to me this is a very exciting update.

NaNoWriMo

Decided this November to aim for my dream. Decided to sign up and do NaNoWriMo which is the national novel writing month. I am pantsing it as for me want this to be a time to just let my writing flow. Looking forward to this challenge.

Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day 

   Happy mother day, to every woman that has had a child, regardless whether they are here or absence or worse lost their precious life. Just for today want you to make today a special day for you, head to your favourite shop. Sit down and have a cup of  your favourite beverage whether it be a coffee or a coke. 

       Today I want you not think about their not there but in that cup let your memories flow back to the moment when life was a full laughter. Think of the good time. Rejoice for the moment we have had as families. Nothing in my opinion more important than being a mother. Read PARAGRAPH  that suits your: 

     WITHOUT YOUR CHILDREN TODAY: a mother we get to mould the next generation, and you know what if you loved your child who perhaps today is not talking to you, he grown up busy with their life. If you loved them then you have done your job. So mumma today take your beautiful self and celebrate the good things you have achieved and raising a child is an achievement and I believe everybody has good and that comes from their parents loving. So enjoy your day just because your awesome

WITH MUMS:   Mumma with your babies enjoy your hugs today and savour every moment with them as you are the luckiest person  alive, I know I am. My babies have are the best things in the whole wide world, they keep me alive every day they make smile when I am sad, help put heart broken back the help put the piece back together 

WITHOUT MUMS:  just remember the time you spent. Please don't be sad as I know from a mum heart they would not want that, as mum they love their children they want you rejoice in what the achievement you made. Mum feels sads to see the baby crying. I do not care of ages you alway their babies. So today go and get do something you and mum did and make this day is about the wonderful the time, celebrate her life and what she did you.   

Again have a wonderful mothers days. 

Framed by Chronic Pain, but my artwork is beautiful

Looking at chronic pain can be depressing and steals from the real picture God has in store for my life. Living with chronic pain constantly had wore me down until depression and , suicidal thoughts all  in opposition to God word, had taken residency in my mind. Since living with chronic pain, with the constant barraging of pain and the never ending doctor visit, all to no avail, as doctors are unable fix or find the root of my pain. Pain fills every cell, screaming for my full attention unable to fathom living the rest of my life in this pain, nueropathic pain and complex regional pain syndrome drove me to near breaking point. I had to turn it around.

         Yet as a Christian, I still can have  hope in Jesus as my healer. I can imagine having hope in the future again. Even when on days, laying in bed when life seems stolen and mourning of the old life, I lost. Father of lies tells me, how useless and hopeless and I  might as well end it now. These thoughts have raced through my mind many times when it been a struggle to do the normal things like even using the bathroom. I know, I can no longer work a full day, no longer cook a meal or do what my family needs of me, yet the truth is- I am still wonderfully, perfectly made and I still have a wonderful purpose.
           
         Chronic pain is like a painting made of two parts:- the frame and the painting. Chronic pain is the frame which restrict me and restrains what I can able to do. The important part is what is in the picture that is all the great stuff in my life. This is where the artist does all his work. So, using God’s lens let's take a look at what i can see in my pictures.  I have a wonderful friend Jesus who is by my side at every moment , five children, a husband, meals help, house whatever else needs doing by my family. They are so important to me these things I can out on a banner of praise.
         
         Often chronic pain likes to control my thoughts with every moment, each moment when pain is high, has me thinking of my pain, depression, worthlessness, inability to manage, this thought pattern gives the disease power. It a real cross way,  I have a choose  to take the power off it, by turning my thoughts to rejoicing the good in my life.
         
         I can choose to study and draw near to God and find my real value in him. Rather than thinking chronic pain as a curse begin to use this time to drawer near to God and to study his word and begin draw close to him, not like we can go anyway, give pain or God the power, I want God. I choose rejoice and praise him, yes I still have chronic pain. So just for today I draw close to my Heavenly father, and thank him for the wonderful things within my picture. What in your picture frame to be thankful for?

Creativity

The participation in crafts today has drastically reduce, yet our statistics of depressions has greatly risen. This post is in no way taking away the serious of depression, as I know it is the lacking of serotonin. I myself fight this battle since living with chronic pain hence musing of this subject. This was just my musing as life got busier, and busier and more stressful, eroding at the make up in our brain that gives us the sense of well being, hope and future. Binds us in darkness and miserableness of negativity the opposite to what we had.
This made me consider back in the 1920 when ladies spent a lot of time with in the house their was no television or computer demanjnd more thought they could participate in a thoughtless repetitious activity like sewing or knitting. This made me wonder if this would aide our mood. Time to stop and just concentrate on a thoughtless motion with no aim just something to relax you. This is reason I been writing again with my chronic pain and I have found me personally this has helped, what about others I would love to know if you have found this too? Or is this another unspoken thing of the pass the actual well being of the folks another aspect that just was not spoken of.  Hmm does creativity allow room for hope to flow in at this stage, food for thought anyway.

Gidday

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